As I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my soul to keep. To help me clear my cluttered mind. To help me through these desperate times. To bring my love to me all night. In Dreams where everything feels so right. That even if he can't be here, Make it feel as though he's near As I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my pain to keep. To keep my worries, troubles, and tears, and keep me strong for future years. To help me stand up tall and proud,and crying may you not allow. No tears to weep, nor cry, nor shed. No moments of weakness to plauge my head. As I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my love to keep. To protect my SAILOR through thick and thin. To safely guide him home again. To keep me on his mind all day, to love me truly this I pray. Let no worries cross his mind. Let no fears his heart entwine. As I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my heart to keep. To shelter it from piercing pain, when I accidentally call out his name. When I forget that he's still gone, help me Lord to stay real strong. To gently push away my tears, when I wake up and he's not here.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
So Jose is out to sea. He will be gone for 3 weeks and I miss him like crazy! My cell phone quit working the day he left, but now it is working again. (go figure). I'm not quite sure how I am going to keep busy to pass the time, but I am sure I'll figure it out. I just need to get out of the house as much as possible I'm sure. I gave Hunter a mohawk this last weekend. He looks adorable as you can see in the first post of Hunter with pictures. I'll take more pictures today. I try to write Jose a letter every week now, I'm just not very good at getting them to the mailbox lmao. This weekend I'm going to make him cookies, YUMMEE! Him being over there isn't exactly the easiest thing, but when you feel how we do about eachother it's hard not to make the decision to wait for eachother. Some people don't understand it I'm sure. We care about eachother a lot, and we have really strong feelings for eachother. Jose and I have a lot in common and we like a lot of the same things. We are attracted to eachother and we have fallen in love with eachother. I can't wait until he is home! The best part about feeling as much as we do for eachother is we know for a fact it isn't just a physical attraction because well, he isn't physically here right now. It's much more than the lust most people feel at the beginning of a relationship and that is very important. Yes, we are physically attracted to eachother, but that part can wait. I love him with all my heart and we are a good match for eachother. It's not going to be easy at all, it is going to be really hard and we are going to have to work at it every day. We have argued and what not, but that is going to happen, we get through it. I miss him and I love him, I can't wait til he is home. He is good for Hunter and I. He can't wait to hang out with Hunter and that is very important to me, he loves my son. Atleast this time it's only 3 weeks, it's going to be for much much longer soon. I miss you Jose and I love you, be safe baby! XOXO